Last night was pure hell!!! At 1:15am a ring of fire formed from just below my shoulder blades and rolled around to the kidney on my right side then down to the top of my butt crack and back up to the kidney on my left side then up to the start. Within this ring was the combined sensation or burning mingled with an electrical charge that feels similar to touching your tongue to the poles on a brand new 9 volt battery. With the epicenter right where the right and left sciatic nerves meet with the spine. HELL! HELL!! HELL!!!
If that was not enough, my upper arms on both sides where the bicep meets the shoulder muscle started to feel an intense pressure as if the Incredible Hulk had grabbed each arm and was trying to crush my bones. CRUSH! CRUSH!! CRUSH!!!
Knowing that my agony would awaken my wife, I left the bedroom with my pillows and headed for the couch in the front room where I could wait out the pain and then go back to bed.
From the back of my neck, up to the top of my head, and down again to my eyebrows a burning-squeezing skull cap formed. FIRE! FIRE!! FIRE!!!
Then it all came together to form a dark cloak of infernal pain in every joint, muscle, bone, nerve, and cell of my body. PAIN! ANGUISH!! DESPAIR!!!
Fibromyalgia had sunk it's poisonous fangs into my spine sending it's venom through my body until it engulfed me within about ten minutes time.
I took one Norco at 1:30am.
Still consumed in torture I feared that maybe I'd forgotten to take my Lyrica before bed. I was in so much pain that it was hard to remember that I'd ever been without pain. I took a Lyrica at 1:40am.
No relief and feeling like I wanted to put a bullet in my head to stop it, I took another Norco at 1:45am and waited for the pills to kick in.
30 minutes later, after sufficient time for the pills to kick in, I was blanketed in sweat and in the fetal position on the couch rocking to and fro. I felt as though my body had been covered with hot tar and then thrown under a bus that went back and forth over my wasted body.
Somewhere after 2:00am I began crying uncontrollably--the pain was unbearable and I was sure it would never end. NEVER EVER END!!! I do not cry when pain is involved except in extreme situations and this was one of them.
At 3:00am I crawled into the bathroom--too weak and too tired and too sore to walk--and started a hot bath hoping it would ease the pain in my joints and muscles. My wife heard the bathwater turned on and came to see me--this was an hour and a half before she was to get up for work and I felt so bad for her having to lose sleep and find me in this state. I weakly got my cloths off and climbed into the water and the weightlessness and warmth felt good, but did very little to ease the pain. My wife went and got another Norco for me--my third in two hours. I spent about 10 minutes in the water, but the hard surface of the tub was making me hurt even more.
Between 3:15 and 3:30am I took an Oxycontin that I was scheduled to take close to that time anyway. My wife made me come back to bed with her and as I was getting into bed I could feel the storm passing. My body weakened and full of pain medication finally calmed and I was able to fall asleep until about 7:00am when the whole thing tried to flare up again, but gave up and went away after about 10 minutes--long enough to wake me up completely. After that, I slept fitfully and every time I moved or shifted position I felt horrendous.
I couldn't get out of bed again until around 2:00pm in the afternoon. Stiff, sore, and still feeling like I'd been run over I decided I had to take a shower and do something with my day.
Even as I write this blog--after taking an hour long hot bath--I still feel the echos of the bus rolling over me. The Hulk has loosened his grip, but still holds tight. The ring of fire now smolders until something comes along to fan the flames again. It terrifies me to think it may be this intense again and even more horrified that it might even be worse.
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